I woke up this morning spinning. The truth is, I should have probably stopped 3 red solo cups of wine earlier. So as my feet hit the ground I regretted everything instantaneously. My head was spinning, the lack of food in my stomach made me feel weak, and I felt like everything was moving in slow-mo. "I am pretty sure this is what a zombie feels like", I thought as I forced my feet forward, nearly dead on the inside and dead-looking on the outside. It was one of those mornings that you really wished you could sleep through.
I stumbled upon a meme the other day, it was talking about how there should be gold stars for university students... they'd say " Good for you, you finished that paragraph" or "Good for you, you washed your hair today!" I feel like there should be gold stars like that for simply being an adult and dealing with adult things. I have to keep telling myself " Good for you Alexa,
you put pants on today..." Or "You ate half a cookie! Well done," because life is hard, and sometimes you need all the encouragement you can get.
Fast forward 4 hours, I am sitting a work with washed hair, clean clothes and makeup on. (That's at least 4 gold stars!) I'm pondering what this day will look like... and what sort of surprises await me. I sit with myself and search for that inner peace, and strain to hear for the voice of truth speaking into my life.
I read the
First 15 devotional almost everyday, and today it talks about
truth. We believe things to be true about ourselves - things that we filter through our own skewed human perspective. But I believe that God wants us to believe things to be true about ourselves by
solely filtering them through His eyes. With that Godly perspective anything is possible.
